#I’ve sketched a million more things based off of this fic but every time I resolve to post one of them I overthink it :

[wofworld]

“Back to the Underworld for Powder it seemed. Ironic that it was called Topside. The bright and shimmery land of death built right on top of her warm, dark world of life.”

Doodles based off of the iconic Hazardous Technology & The Minds Who Make it (@nona-la-nona). If I could read only one piece of literature for the rest of my life and nothing else…

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Words - The Long Reach Fic

@gumnut-logic wrote a fic called Thunderbird X that is a million times better than my random musings. Their fic was posted first and I highly recommend you go and read it HERE if you haven’t already 

But anyway... Nutty knows about this fic and has given me a blessing to post it no matter how much I protested that it was far too similar.

Under the cut for SPOILERS

Alternatively, read on AO3

To say he hadn’t thought about what he would say when he was reunited with his sons would be a bold faced lie. It had been a hope that Jeff Tracy had been daydreaming of since he had become stranded in the Oort cloud. Some days the possibility of ever seeing them again had seemed little more than a wish or hope, something that he could think about forever but would never actually happen. 

Still, it was those thoughts that occupied his mind every single day as he went through his routines and chores.It would of course be a momentous day if they were to find him, and Jeff wasn’t the sort of man to let that kind of day pass without some form of well thought out words.  As he tinkered and fiddled it was those thoughts that kept him going in the hope that he would find just the right words to say if he ever got saved. 

The classic sarcasm had been his original plan, what had taken them so long? Could they have not picked a retirement place closer to home? Yes, he had had a wonderful holiday thank you.

After some time the last of those options had made his heart ache. 

He wasn’t on the Moon now. Not even his brief visit to Mars stood up to the place where he was. The more local planets had been a holiday in comparison to his long fight for survival. Each and every day for years had presented a new challenge, a new problem to overcome. There had been more than one occasion when the fight had gotten too much for him and going on seemed to be prolonging the inevitable. 

The transmission had come through just at the right time. 

It was broken and scrambled but to him it was enough just to hear the fragments of John’s voice. His boys needed him, they were still looking for him. That was all he needed to know that somehow, some day they would find him. 

And so the daydreams of what a reunion would be like came back to the fore. 

It was around about that point he had started the sketch of home, a remedy to his thoughts and something else for him to think about. The feeling of that sun on his face. Fresh, breathable air that didn’t come from oxygen concentrators. Sand in between his toes. The cacophony of his family, the five boys, his mother, Kayo and even Brains. 

Which of them would come for him? Who would his perfect speech need to be tailored for?

Alan would be too young to be allowed in space. Gordon, whilst capable in zero-g, didn’t have as much enthusiasm for space flight as his older brothers. Mind, he knew the same was also true of Virgil. Though he supposed Virgil’s engineering capabilities may be required on such a long flight. Scott and John were perhaps the only two definites. The eldest son Jeff didn’t doubt would be carrying on that role of leadership as he always had with his brothers, whilst John was the son Jeff had always known would follow him to space. 

How are you? Would be too casual, like he had only been away for days rather than years. 

Look at how you’ve grown! Would be expected, perhaps something he would save for a later conversation. 

His heart hurt at the thought of how much his boys may have changed. 

Little Allie had been so young when he had gone. It was crushing to face the reality that he would have missed so much in the young man's life. 

And what of the others? Were they all well? Or had the task of running International Rescue proven too much? Had he fated his sons to something devastating when he had left them? Had any of them been hurt? Injured? Worse?

He refused to let himself think like that. His boys were his, stubborn and strong and smart. They would have gotten through so many life changes without him.

Would there be partners? Children? Was he a grandfather?

What he wouldn’t have given for that information, just simply for the knowledge that his boys were happy, healthy and safe. 

It had at least given him another reason to hold out for them. 

Until the damned rock he had parked himself on had begun to judder one day. 

Jeff Tracy knew what seismic activity felt like, and on a planetoid of that size he knew what it meant. 

He was running out of time. 

The Zero-x was useless, helpful for nothing more than powering the setup that had lasted him as long as was feasible. He had looked at him options plenty of times, assessed if there was a way to improvise and adapt what he had. Only one answer had presented itself to him each and every time though.

If his boys didn’t manage to come soon, the planetoid would disintegrate and take him with it. 

There had to be something. He had survived so long, it wasn’t fair that it came down to gravity and shifting rock. His boys would be coming, they had to be. Why? Why just when he had the perfect thing to say to them, was it all going to be taken away?

He had to find a way. 

Finding a way was the reason he had almost missed them. 

He’d been on the wrong side of the crevice when he saw the searchlights and what looked like Thunderbird Four on a string. 

Except it couldn’t be. 

Could it?

Just in case, he had made a run for it, cursing as the rock broke away under his feet forcing him to jump and stumble back to his base. He could have sworn that something or someone somewhere had it in for him, that some cruel trick of fate meant he was destined to not make it home. 

Tracy’s were stubborn though. 

As he got closer static in his ear became muffled broken bits of conversation and he couldn’t quite believe what he was hearing. 

Five boys. 

All his five boys. 

And a refusal to give up until they had him to take home. 

Scott sending little Alan away, the youngest just a spec in the sky as Jeff looked up and watched him float away. His eldest son sighing heavily, questioning where he could be. 

Oh how he wanted to yell that he was there, that if he just held on for two more moments he would be right behind him. 

The shift of rock took his breath away, catching him off guard but clearly catching Scott harder. For a moment he hesitated, waiting, watching to see if he would recover himself. But no, it wasn’t meant to be, there was no recovery no use of the jetpack that Jeff had stolen the design for from Lee.

It was instinct to jump after him, not thinking twice as he reacted to save the son that had come to save him. 

And then he was there, hanging from Jeff’s hand and looking up at him in awe. Every single word that Jeff had planned was suddenly forgotten. It was like the day the boy had been born all over again. The same wide blue eyes looking up at him with all the trust and love in the world. 

It seemed odd that it was the same feeling that overcame him at that moment. 

A feeling that somehow, despite everything stopping him, he would protect those boys from anything in the universe. Previous speech forgotten, he knew just what words he needed to say,

“I’ve got you, son.”

[evakuality]

Skam fic reading thing

@canonicallyanxious tagged me in this like a million years ago but I’ve been putting it off because honestly how do I boil down everything I’ve read over the last year?  But then I figured I should do it and show some love to some of the great things I’ve read and remembered.  So let’s get to it:

The first fic you fell in love with: Ah man, I really don’t remember.  What I remember was soaking up everything that existed when I first discovered Skam in early 2017.  I suspect it was probably something by cosetties because I remember loving the way she writes the banter between the two of them, how real it feels and how much it seemed like real teen boys while also feeling very much like these characters I was in love with.

The last fic you fell in love with:  ‘The same amplitude and period’ by @vesperthine.  I remember feeling very unsettled after the first part of this fic.  Like I needed more, some sort of closure or something and I got it here in such a beautiful way.

The fic that you’ve re-read the most times: Hmmmm, I don’t really re-read much but I guess probably ‘open the pod bay doors’ by iriswests or ‘I’m always here’ by @nofeartina.  In both cases because I just love the interactions between them and I love the way Even is.  I know I’ve read both of these at least twice, so.  Those two I guess.

A fic that you didn’t expect to love as much as you do (based on the description, a pairing or whatever): ‘A mental archive of love unwanted’ by chevythunder.  I remember clicking on it because it had a couple of chapters and at the time I’d read everything else.  The idea of Even in love with Mikael, and Isak knowing was a bit offputting but in the end I looked at it and wow.  I really love this fic so much now.  In fact, if I was going to reread anything this would probably be the next on my list.

A fic you knew you were going to love from the first paragraph or even just reading the description: ‘making new cliches’ by @canonicallyanxious.  I’ve always loved her writing anyway, and I read her other Skam fics and fell in love, so I kind of knew I’d love this even before I started.  But that first section in Even’s PoV, with his mental bank where it comes to Isak and the way they connect even then … I fell deep and hard and never came back up.  This is still probably my favorite fic in this fandom.

A fic that makes you feel like shouting about it to anyone who listens because everyone needs to read it:  Apart from ‘making new cliches’, you mean?  (which honestly, I used to push at everyone I ever interacted with online until I’m fairly sure they started avoiding me).  Ummmm, I think that the other one I used to ask people if they’d read it yet was ‘boy with a basket of fruit’ by @fxckxxp.  It was just so immersive and beautiful and I wanted to shout about it with people and no-one was reading it.  Eventually they did and I could yell to my heart’s content but for a while there I was pretty keen to make others look at it.

The fic you are/were the most excited to be updated: Well, I fell in love with ‘a mental archive of love unwanted’ and so I remember being fairly impatient for the updates for that.  But the other one would be ‘I guess that’s destiny doing it right’ by @littlespooneven. I just remember falling in love with the story and the setting and just wanting more as soon as I’d finished the previous one.

The fic you caught yourself thinking/ theorizing about the most during your everyday life: I really don’t do this.  My everyday life is so hectic that I tend to have to compartmentalize: fic is for fic time and daily life if for daily life time.  The only times I’ve come close have been when I’ve said ‘oh I hope x doesn’t happen’ when something I’m reading isn’t going a way I like or enjoy.  I don’t want to say what those were though so I’ll leave this one.

A fic you want to print out and have it among your books on the shelf: I don’t know?  There are so many I actually really love.  So I think I’m just going to say every single character study I’ve read.  I love them and they tend to be so underrated, possibly because often the shippy stuff is secondary to the character’s development, and yet they are often where we find the best representations of the characters.

A fic universe you want to live in: Hmmmm.  Actually, probably ‘if I could fly’ by thekardemomme.  The idea of being a tiny fairy and eating blueberry cakes and stealing craft supplies to beautify my teeny tiny home?  That sounds pretty damn fun.  The only downside would be the keeping wings dry thing.

A fic to which you would read endless amount of follow-ups, one-shots, meta, etc. by the author:  ‘Don’t leave me (alone)’ by @crazyheartfics.  I just love this magical realism and the peeps from one world into another and I’d love to see more of it.  It’s such a fascinating idea and I love the way it all works.  I want to know more about it - does everyone get those connections?  Why do they happen?  Etc etc.  All the meta and all the follow up fics, pease!

The scene in a fic that made you laugh the hardest:  Probably the whole of ‘the balloon intervention’ by lovelycarcass.  I find it all so funny. I love that the balloon squad are so obvious in their pursuit of Isak for Even and yet how oblivious Isak is to them.  

The scene in a fic that made you cry the hardest: I don’t cry at fic?  I hardly ever cry when I’m reading (but for some reason I cry at the drop of a hat when viewing something, even an ad on TV, and I have no idea why this is).  But I think the fic that made me feel the most was probably ‘the notion of falling’ by smokeshop.  There was a lot in that one that was hard to read and which upset me, and yet I read it all in one sitting and couldn’t put it down.  It was very immersive.

A scene in a fic that left you hot and bothered: I don’t tend to get ‘hot and bothered’ but I do love to read connections between the characters so the scenes like this that get me are always the ones where there are deep feelings alongside everything else.  So the ones that I remember and which stayed with me for a long time were ‘I’m going to show you how to do it’ and ‘living happily with sugar on’ both by @fille-lioncelle.  I dunno, the feelings in those two were both so good.

A scene that squeezes your insides and hard to read but in a good way: Erm … that’s still ‘the notion of falling’ by smokeshop.  But if I had to choose another one I think maybe ‘with love, from anonymous’ by iriswests and cosetties.  I don’t recall them exactly, (though I think one was when Even was trying to tell isak about being bipolar? I think? And he thinks he’s the villain and I was just !!! stop being like that about yourself!!) but I remember several times in that fic when I was left with all these feelings and nowhere to put them after finishing a chapter.  I think having both PoVs in such depth really enhanced that feeling.

A twist that made you gasp out loud: I don’t remember any twist really making me gasp so I’m just going to leave this one.

A line, scene, a metaphor or an idea in a fic that made you think: I really enjoyed ‘sketches of Even’ by fandomlimb with the way the art was integrated into the fic and how organic that felt.  It was just so well done and I remember being quite sad when it came to an end.

A character you fell in love with because of a fic (or multiple fics): Ummmm, none?  I maybe appreciate Sonja a bit more but I’m not sure if that’s from reading some good portrayals of her or from thinking about her in my own writing.

A pairing you’ve grown to love because of a fic (or multiple fics): It’s not a pairing, but a threesome, which is Isak/Even/Jonas.  I don’t think I believe them as an ongoing thing (too invested in evak tbh), but I can 100% see them experimenting and enjoying it.

A fic you (re-)read if you have a bad day / would recommend for someone to read if they’re having a bad day: Much like pretty much everyone else, I think maybe ‘things look different in the morning’ by allyasavedtheday.  It’s just so soft and sweet and loving and makes you feel safe and warm and cuddled.  And when you’re having a bad day, what could be better than that?

A fic you (re-)read when you really miss Skam / would recommend for someone to read when they really miss Skam: I really don’t know.  Probably any or all of the ones I’ve mentioned.  They’re all ones that sucked me in and immersed me in some way

I can’t think of anyone to tag who hasn’t already been tagged or who I haven’t seen doing it already.   So please, if you haven’t been tagged and you want to do this, I want to read your answers.

[i-did-not-mean-to]

Oh wow...thanks for the tag @blairsanne

Total # of Completed Works: I have 9 (2 of them older) completed chaptered fics and 32 one-chapter fics/drabbles.

Total Word Count: 782 196 without counting the chapters of previous works I added...I'd say some 900 000

Fandoms I’ve Written In: Having started out as an RPF writer, RPF.

The Hobbit mainly, Hannibal, BBC Robin Hood, Sparkhouse...(So, the Hobbit and RA's roles...lol)

Looking Back, Did You Write More Fic Than You Thought You Would This Year, Less, or About What You’d Expected?: I wrote definitely MORE (more subjects, more fics, more words). I only entered the fandom in late August so the chunk of these words have been written in a few months LOL

What’s Your Own Favorite Story of the Year?: My Christmas-story, to be honest, because it's the first one I've actually outlined and finished before posting it. 🙈

Did You Take Any Writing Risks This Year?: Being here at all? I've published quietly on Ao3 without getting any views and now...it's the first time I get real feedback lol

Also, I will repeat it for the backrows, I am not actually a smut-writer, so the smut is a risk for me.

First and foremost though, this year, I've first dared to write in-universe, so pre-written an non-real characters.

I have tried different styles (fairy tale, folklore, Hallmark movie, crime story, letter...) and I had a lot of fun with it.

Do You Have Any Fanfic or Profic Goals for the New Year?: Go on? Not let life discourage me from writing and posting. Finishing some of my fics that are at the end of their arc...Doubt is killing me most of the time.

Story of Mine Most Under-Appreciated by the Universe, In My Opinion: My Christmas fic? I really like that one! Or maybe the RPF OR...the story I wrote based on @lathalea's prompt...But I don't think my stories are underrated...they're rated just right. I am mediocre LOL

Most Fun Story to Write: My most fun stories are never posted and often not even read. I like writing my friends and that's the most fun I ever have writing haha

Most Unintentionally Telling Story: All my stories seem telling to me because I put a lot of myself into the story. Off the top of my head, I would say the Diary and the letter say a lot about the darker parts of myself whereas Boys and Sticks reveals a lot of the shrewd humour I seem to have. I guess Black still holds a special place in my heart, because it (in a way) shows my entry into the fandom and my struggle to come to terms with things I've been afraid of all my life.

Biggest Disappointment: That I have a thousand started projects I might never finish because I ran out of steam or got frightened by better authors.

That I hate myself and my writing with such intensity that every 3 days, I want to delete everything and disappear.

That apparently nobody else ships Ori...@shrimpsthings I love you for not leaving me alone haha

That I don't have the time to go back and read EVERYTHING my friends have ever written; I am struggling to stay abreast of all the things that are newly posted already :(

Biggest Surprise: This community! I've discovered that I am really open when it comes to reading and that - except for babies - I am not squicked by much. I also have discovered that I LOVE art and that I LOVE supporting it in small ways!

I've made it onto @guylty'y list once or twice, I've been rec'ed by people so amazingly talented that it always leaves me in awe, I have read MILLIONS (not lying) of words in a few months, and I don't intend to stop.

Sometimes, someone reads my stories as well and you know who you are...I love you, I consider you friends, and I am so grateful for you that the mere thought of your handle cheers me up!

OOOOH, that will be a long taglist... under the cut <3

@lathalea

@legolasbadass

@fizzyxcustard

@linasofia

@laurfilijames

@xxbyimm

@kibleedibleedoo

@bitter-sweet-farmgirl

@middleearthpixie

@guardianofrivendell

@sketch-and-write-lover

@naykakishi

@midearthwriting

@fandomfaeryreads

@scariusaquarius

@amina-celestial

@joyfullynervouscreator

@shalinizhara

@shrimpsthings

@avaria-revallier

@lordoftherazzles

@ahufflepuffhobbit

@midearthwritings

@enchantzz

@maalezzo

@blueberryrock

@self-conscious-author

@peneigh-dzredfohl

@faeriefics

@clumsy-wonderland

@lilunoakes

2021 Fic Year in Review

thank you to @lindirs-gaze for tagging me!! 

Total # of Completed Works: 3

Total Word Count: 42,947

Fandoms I’ve Written In: The Hobbit 

Looking Back, Did You Write More Fic Than You Thought You Would This Year, Less, or About What You’d Expected?: definitely a lot less. it wasn’t the best year for me to focus on writing though

What’s Your Own Favorite Story of the Year?: Unspoken Agreements

Did You Take Any Writing Risks This Year?: i wrote a lot of smut at the end of the year, which is big for me because writing smut makes me anxious 

Do You Have Any Fanfic or Profic Goals for the New Year?: yes! i’m currently working on writing more often and finishing a few wip fics this year

Story of Mine Most Under-Appreciated by the Universe, In My Opinion: i just want all my fics to flourish… probably Home is Where the Heart is though

Most Fun Story to Write: oh, but it’s cold outside, because writing porn was fun

Most Unintentionally Telling Story: hmmm. probably Off the Road 

Biggest Disappointment: just in general not writing as much as i wanted to last year. i was hoping to keep steam up on Unexpected Agreements but i’m working on it! 

Biggest Surprise: surprised how well people responded to oh, but it’s cold outside tbh i’m glad so many people enjoyed it

tagging: @vtforpedro @ahufflepuffhobbit @lordoftherazzles  and like… the rest of my writer mutual if yall want?